February 11th, 2003

Dr. Bunny

February TWO: With a Vengeance

Freezing cold wind blows
My bones creek with every step
Almost half way through

So my Feb continues on with more and more good news. So much good news I think I could spit, possibly even vomit. Hmmm, what would February vomit look like? Would it have lots of little tiny heart shaped peices? Better not talk any more about it.

Anyhoot, so remember that whole play thing? Did I mention that? I can't remember. Anyway, it conflicts not only with BIG weekend, but my last EC dinner dance. Now, I could miss one, but not both. So I decided to drop the play. It really really sucks right now. I feel like I have been making promises that I couldn't keep. But EC is really important to me, it has been my support for the past four years. I have never missed a dance. And this is my time to say goodbye to people in the group, to say goodbye in general. I need it.

Everyday I think more and more about where I am going after I graduate. I really want to stay becuase I have so many close friends here. But I think I need a change. I feel that if I stay in GreenBay, it would not give me the oppertunity for more growth. I would stay here, still be a part of the college community, and I desperatly need to get away from that. But there are so many people here who I don't know if I could leave behind. They are so much a part of my life, a part of who I am. I mean, I can always come back and visit, which is a very good thing. To go and come back and compare stories is part of what life is all about. WIsh me luck in whatever I do.
  • Current Mood
    confused confused
Dr. Bunny

Music I shouldn't listen to durring Feb.

Well I have spent nights with matches and knives
Leaning over edges only two flights up.
Cutting my heart, burning my soul, with nothing left to hold
Nothing left, but blood and fire.
You have spend nights thinking of me,
missing my arms but you needed to leave
Leaving my cuts, leaving my burns, hoping I'd learn.

But blood and fire are too much for these restless arms to hold
And my nights of desire, they're calling me here, back to your fold
And I'm calling you, calling you, from ten thousand miles away
Won't you wet my fire with your love, babe

I am looking for someone who can take as much as I give
And'll give back as much as I need, y'know and still have the will to live
'Cuase I am intense, I am in need, I am in pain, I am in love
But I feel forsaken, you know like the things I gave away.

And blood and fire are too much for these restless arms to hold
And my nights of desire, they're calling me here, back to your fold
And I'm calling you, calling you, from ten thousand miles away
Won't you wet my fire with your love, babe

I am intense, I'm in need I'm in pain, I'm in love
I am intense, I am in need, I am in pain, I am in love
I am intense, I am in need, I am in pain, I am in love

And blood and fire are too much for these restless arms to hold
And my nights of desire, they're calling me here, back to your fold
And I'm calling you, calling you, from ten thousand away
Won't you wet my fire with your love, babe.
  • Current Music
    Blood and Fire by The Indigo Girls