June 11th, 2003

Dr. Bunny

I want to ride my bicycle, I want to ride my bike...

I got a bike today, I am VERY VERY VERY happy. Over fifty happy. Go team me.

You know what? I don't think I want to be a leading lady. I don't want to be the star. I mean, sure, Meg Ryan, Julia Roberts, they get the man in the end, they get the big romantic scenes, but I want to the be the plucky comic relief. I'll get the better lines, I'll get to see more of what happens. Sure, I'll end up falling for the guy who wants the leading lady, and I'll do everything in my power to make sure he ends up with her because secretly I want him to fall for me but I know that won't happen. But I don't want to be the leading lady.

There ain't no moral to this story at all
Anything I tell you very well may be a lie
Been away from the living, I don't need to be forgiving,
I'm just waiting for this coal black soul of mine
to come alive.
Dr. Bunny

All the world's a stage...

So I was thinking about that blurb about not wanting to be the leading lady, and I think I want to expand on that. I really don’t want to be the leading lady.

I guess I should say that at times, I do want to be the star. I want to get the guy in the end. I want that amazing scene in the movies where he comes and finds me and everything is happy in the end. We cry, we kiss, and we end up getting married and everything is wonderful.

But I look at the stars, and I realize that that isn’t who I am. I know it’s not good to think of my life as a movie, but it is, it’s one big ensemble cast. My friend Sarah, she’s a leading lady type. She’s beautiful and tragic, wonderfully nice, and most of my guy friends have all wanted her. A lot of my girl friends have been leading lady types. I’ve had a lot of jealousy towards them because they always get what I want in the end. But when I look at it, they’ve gone through a lot of hard times and pain, most of it caused by themselves.

My role in this whole ensemble cast is that of the plucky comic relief. I’m the best friend of either the leading lady or the leading man. In the case of the man, I’m the girl who gets over looked each and every time. She pulls her strings, she makes her connections, and her friend gets the girl/guy in the end. She has the best lines, she has the best scenes. Sometimes, she does end up with a great guy, and she’s more happy in the end.

I’m Smitty from “How To Succeed In Buisness…” I’m Liz from “The Philadelphia Story”

I think those are the characters I like, and the characters I want to write about. Is there a way to make a leading lady out of the plucky comic relief? Is there a way to mesh the two qualities?
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