July 22nd, 2003

Dr. Bunny

You and me and a bottle of gin

Tell me you love me 'cause I know you do.

First off, thank you guys ever so much for the support you have given me. It means a lot and I love each and every one of you very very much. I spent most of yesterday crawled halfway inside a bottle of VanGogh gin. I can tell you why many writers are alcoholics. It's so easy to let your mind float off into a world of intoxication than to actually think

Now I want to talk a bit about rejection and being a writer. I knew when I picked this profession that rejection would happen. Everybody told me, everybody warned me, and I thought I understood. Rejection is a natural part of this business. There are so many people in the world who want to be writers, and not enough periodicals to hold them all. For every story that gets accepted, sometimes hundreds have been rejected. No one ever said that getting the rejection letters would be easy. In fact, my writing professor told us that while it does get easier, it still stings a bit.

But submission and possible rejection is the game all writers play. It's what we have to go through in order to succeed. Rejection is our rite of passage. Some people can't handle it, rejection hurts and sometimes it becomes too personal. It's learning how to deal with that pain that seperates writers from posers.

I see yesterday's rejection as my initiation into the world of being an actual writer. Yes, it hurt, but I survived. It wasn't too horrible. My world didn't end, I didn't die, and I can honestly say I'm not going to be touching gin any time soon. I know now that I can do this. I can submit my stories and deal with the possible rejection. I can keep trying, I can keep moving forward. And above all, I can keep writing.

Once again, thank you to everybody who gave me hugs, both real and virtual yesterday. I promise I won't get that bad in the future :)