January 5th, 2008

Dr. Bunny


Right now I am on day three of a New Direction "Reset." What this means is that for two weeks I am going back on supplement. I'll be on five packets a day for a total of 1000 calories. There are a few reasons for this.

Since October, I've been on a sort of a sabbatical from the diet, or at least that's how one of my skills classmates puts it. I haven't been attending my skills classes regularly, I haven't been keeping records, weighing myself or my food, and I haven't been exercising regularly. Of course, what I HAVE been doing in those three months were adjusting to San Francisco, my new schedule, and juggling Grad School. However, due to this, I have gained about twenty pounds and I feel kind of awful.

Now, my feelings of awfulness are not strictly about the weight gain. What I've realized is that when I eat better, when I prepare my own food, when I exercise, I FEEL better, emotionally, mentally and physically. I have more energy and I feel more in control.

So I've decided to do a two week reset. I know that I'm not going to lose the weight I've gained in those two weeks, but what I AM going to gain is the resolve that I had when I was on the fast and when I first started eating again. These are the things that the reset is helping me remember:

1) I have the power to make healthy food choices.

2) When I set my mind to it I can be successful at anything I do.

What I am going to spend the next two weeks focusing on, and probably for the rest of the year (resolution, maybe?) are the following things:

1) There is no such thing as the food police. This one is big for me, especially when I'm eating bread. I keep thinking that someone is going to jump out at me and shout WHY ARE YOU EATING ALL THOSE CALORIES! BAD MEG! BAD MEG!!!

2) There is no one right way to maintain a healthy weight. As long as what I'm doing is healthy (both mentally and physically) then it's okay.

3) I am not a failure if I don't do it exactly the same way as others. Finding my own way and a way I can live with is the most important thing.